I’m posting earlier than usual because I need an early night tonight. All of the finishing touches have been added to Sanchin and now I must wait for my (hopefully) final proof copy to arrive. Once that has been approved, Sanchin will be on its own.
The last couple of weeks have been quite overwhelming. I never, in a million years, expected the positive response I’ve received so far. My only hope now, is that anyone who reads Sanchin will enjoy it as much as I enjoyed writing it.
Thank you to everyone on the HarperCollins Authonomy site for your valuable comments and insights and for helping me to make Sanchin a better book. And a very special thank you to Chris for allaying my biggest fear and for spurring me on to finish.
Today has been a slow day. It has felt strange not having the pressure to get something finished. I even managed to get some exercise. My training has suffered badly recently, so has my diet, my fluid intake and my sleeping pattern.
Perhaps this crazy need to work to the point of self-destruction effects all writers to some degree, I don’t know. But I do know that I don’t much like the way I feel right now.
Emotionally I am on a high. Having finally finished the book, and having received such a wonderful response has given me a real boost. But physically I feel tired and drained.
As a much needed break from my own writing I’ve been following Chris’s blog and reading some material sent to me by a fellow writer. Both talk about karate and training and, while the inspiration has been there to get out and do it, the will has not.
This was a shock to me as, since discovering Kyokushin Karate, my motivation to be the best I possibly could had always been high. The last time my training suffered, it was due to a lack of ability rather than a lack of will. A severe bout of glandular fever left me with a post viral syndrome which, to some degree, still effects me. During this time the will was there but the ability was not.
I gained weight and lost condition, two issues I am still battling with, and I still find very frustrating.
Something changed today. I don’t know if it was finishing Sanchin or the little bit of advice I got in passing in an email but I suddenly got the urge to get outside and run.
I only did a couple of miles but it felt great. After two weeks of more or less living on chocolate and coffee and getting less than four hours sleep a night, I expected to struggle but I didn’t. I flew over those two miles and it was the best run I’ve had in months.
Okay, it got a bit weird in places but I loved it. Someone had broken a vodka bottle on the footpath and, as I always run barefoot, I jumped over a wall and into a field to pass the glass. Mistake.
First of all, the field was full of sheep. At close quarters sheep are big. No, they’re not, they’re huge! At least the one between me and the gate was. So I ran alongside the wall intending to jump back onto the path as soon as I’d passed the glass.
That would have worked nicely but for the fact that I disturbed a chicken who been tucked up at the bottom of the wall. Not wanting to kick it, I took a flying leap just as it did the same. I sort of kicked it anyway and ended up on my face in a swamp. Not a good look – a mud face mask in public. Heck, I don’t even do that in the privacy of my own bathroom.
Anyway, back to the kicked chicken. Other than freaking out and squawking a lot it seemed fine so I ignored it. But by this time I was getting bit too much attention from the sheep to be comfortable, so I quickly hopped back over the wall.
Needless to say, I took my chances with the broken glass on the way back and my feet are still in one piece.
I leaned a lot in the last mad rush to get Sanchin done. I made mistakes and I got things wrong. Yantsu will be a very different writing journey for me and, whatever happens, I will not be neglecting my health.
I’ve given up the coffee and the chocolate. I cooked today and ate a healthy meal and I’m gradually rehydrating with plenty of water. I feel much better already, and I’m looking forward to a good training session tomorrow.
If you’re still reading this, I apologise for wandering of on a bit of a waffle. Perhaps one day I’ll come back and re read this if I slip back into crazy person mode at when Yantsu gets to the editing stage.