Fraud? Ooh, is this some new crime novel in the pipeline? Nope!
This is a confession. I might as well get it out there once and for all and then maybe, just maybe, I’ll get back to my writing.
So here goes. I confess, I feel like a fraud and it stops me in my tracks every time I sit behind my keyboard.
I started, writing Saifa, the third and final book in the Knockdown Karate series, soon after Yantsu was published.
The trouble is, I stopped my karate training around the same time.
There were so many reasons for this that I won’t go into them here, but let’s just say there’s a book in there somewhere 😉
For a long time I kidded myself that I stopped training because of house moves, deaths and other major changes in my life, but three years down the line I can finally admit to myself that that is not true.
The truth is I stopped training because I needed to slow down. I felt the need to live life at a slower and more gentle pace, and I felt the need to exercise that way too.
My training of choice these days is yoga, freediving and swimming.
I still occasionally
kick swing the kettlebell that’s now serving as a doorstop, and I have been known to do the odd sprint. Usually when the greyhound takes off with my underwear something he shouldn’t.
So what does all this have to do with feeling like a fraud? Well, I’ve been crazy enough to think that if I’m not doing karate I can’t write about it.
Again, not the truth. The truth is, quite simply, that I’m a terrible writer. Writers write, right? And I don’t.
There, I said it.
Saifa, and all the other books that are floating around in my head, are never going to get published if I don’t just sit down and write.
I can tell myself all I like that I can’t write about karate white I’m not doing karate but that’s bulldust.
I might be a bit behind with the current martial arts scene, but that’s what research is for. And research might actually be fun.
So, I’ve decided I’m going to fish the manuscript out of my
sock drawer documents folder and just get on with it.
I doubt it will be finished this side of Christmas, but it will be done.
Right, I’m going to get started now and, when I’m not too busy writing the book, I’ll keep you posted on here.